I don’t have a title because I am feeling whatever!!!

I want to write about what I’ve been feeling today, but I can’t really put a label on what it is.  For one I am irritated…the kind that turns into bitchiness.  I am sort of frustrated as well, because I can’t seem to get the results that I want from certain people – the way I want it. 

Anyway here goes… I am what you call an individual contributor.  If my Boss needs me to do something I deliver, and can proudly say, I do it well.  I’ve always seen myself as someone who can work with less supervision and I don’t wait for my Boss to tell me what to do or give me detailed instructions all the time.  I know when to ask for it and how to ask for it.  And so, things for me have changed.  I sort of have people reporting to me because of the role I have in this project.  In a way I manage them – what they do and their deliverables.  I also mentor them, on how to do things, how to deal with people the way our Boss expects us to.  I am not used to it and I even kinda refused to do it, but as my Boss said, I have to, because that is what I should be doing.  If I look at it on the other side, I am lucky… very lucky to be trained by my Boss this way.  I’ve been getting a lot of good feedback from within the team and from the Business Unit we are supporting.  So what’s the problem right?  I like to do things a certain way and I expect those around me to do it the way I expect it to be done.  I don’t really scream at them if I am not happy with the output, no, no, no… I just sometimes show an ounce of bitchiness to them.  I don’t embarrass them or anything like that, but I don’t let things pass and I make it a point they know.  And I think this is why I am feeling this way today…

I hate it when I already teach something and people forget… I hate it that people don’t have the sense of urgency… I hate it when people don’t answer e-mails promptly… I hate it when people don’t know how to relate to their audience during a presentation even if I already taught them how to… I hate it when activities are not done in an orderly fashion… I hate it when we, as a team, are cramming… I hate it when someone complains about small stuff, I wanna scream at them and say “hey don’t sweat the small stuff!”… I hate it when people only care about themselves and not think about what happens to others… I hate feeling this way, as if I don’t commit mistakes!!!

AAAARGH! What the @#$%&*!!!

What's underneath

Some women obsess about bags, some shoes, some make-up... but there's only a few i know who are obsessed with what's underneath our clothes. Or maybe we just don't talk about it like shoes or bags because it's a bit intimate. Well i am a member of that club. I am not into expensive brands, i want what makes me feel sexy.  There was one time when Mister V had a business trip outside of the Philippines and i asked him to buy me some undies. I knew it was gonna be on sale that's why i took the chance :-) and every time there is a chance i grab it... and he would always ask, "what is it about underwear, when nobody can see it?" Good question right? My answer is this... i don't need someone to see what's underneath for me to feel sexy. When i wear something hot, regardless if people see it or not, it makes me feel good! Call it obsession but it's true. What if you were forced to strip down and then you're wearing granny-panty? Wouldn't that be embarrassing? Hahaha! I know, i know it's over the top, but that's the truth for me. I love good, sexy underwear :-)